Hello, and thank you for sticking with me. The last five weeks have been very busy: we have been to Guernsey for a week (almost) and to Anglesey for a long weekend, we have celebrated Cottontail's Thanksgiving and we have helped The Teacher and her family to move house. I feel that I have lurched from one thing to the next, my feet touching the ground, somebody else's ground, one day each week as I have done my regular day at The Teacher's house but other than that, barely touching the ground at all. As I drove home in the dark on Saturday afternoon, 23rd November, I noticed a house which had its Christmas tree up and twinkling away in the front room window, more lights flashing outside the house and threaded through the railings which topped the garden wall and a huge inflatable snowman in the front garden, and I realised that we are hurtling towards Christmas at full speed. Yesterday evening I saw the Coca Cola Christmas advert on television and it felt absurdly early. I am not ready. I want to savour autumn's last hurrah and the quiet reflection of Advent before I start to twinkle.
Of course, I have had some wonderful days and made beautiful memories and I can't regret that, but I feel very unsettled. I need a little time to breathe slowly, to feel my way into the ground beneath me and steady myself. I began that process on Sunday; I stayed indoors all day, in my pyjamas, and made lots of lists - an Advent list, a Christmas gift list, a shopping list, a cleaning list and a decorating list. I do like a list to keep me on track. The Best Beloved cooked a chicken with roasted vegetables and as we sat at the table, we chatted gently about the things we really like about Christmas and we drew up some plans. I did some knitting. It was a slow and thoughtful day. Today I have done some laundry and some more knitting and pottered about the house. I am steadying. A small shopping trip is on tomorrow's list.
I have lots of things to share with you here - beaches, mountains and lots of knitting. I'll be catching up with your blogs this week and trying to live in the moment.
See you soon.
Love, Mrs Tiggywinkle x